It’s past midnight Aug. 4, 2012 and I don’t care
I need to sleep I need to dream of something better
or perhaps a resolution an invisible conversation
to somehow make it all heal and make our lives a little better
I don’t know
sometimes it is hard to carry on
but weep no tears for me for I am the one to blame
for all this shit that has hit the fan
if I hadn’t been so stupid
if I had only stopped to think
even for a moment
but enough about all that because it’s past midnight
on Aug. 4 2012 and I am sitting here typing like a million times before
I still have things to say and I’ll say them
I haven’t gone away although I really wished I could
after the fact, after the fact hurts like nothing else on earth
I feel engulfed in a sea of remorse and sadness rules my heart
Each day is a slow haul through a thick wall of regret
But the light will shine again and I am a new man
Much like the old but different
My heart is bruised and shaken but I am glad
For it was deserved